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Appreciation and Depreciation April 8, 2014

Posted by voolavex in common sense, freedom, Random thoughts, Social Issues.
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In a blinding epiphany last night, I realized that I am beginning to appreciate my life Accomplishments are not appreciation.  Accomplishments are simply the things you have done and they have a positive aura – but even robbing a bank can be a sort of accomplishment.  It is not so much the “aha” moments – but the number of them that snowball down the side of our individual middens as we careen through the years. And we do careen – I can’t walk a straight line in bare feet anymore.  Sad.  True.

In my case it was like suddenly understanding string theory or hearing the music of the spheres or realizing that all the crap I think is crap IS crap.  I no longer ask why we cling to our 2nd Amendment rights, nor shoot each other or serial kill each other – that’s what we watch on the screen.  Big, little, on demand, anytime – click and kill.  There’s an app for it.  But I now appreciate that this is what is happening and I can see it and despair or see it and know I will not change my direction due to it. For example; I do not own a gun.  The reason is simple.  Fear that I will use it.  Most people don’t actually think of this when they shy away from the gun issue.  They are afraid it will get into the wrong hands, they hate guns,  it won’t make a difference in the long haul.  Not me.  I am simply afraid I will not be afraid, I will be the wrong hands and I will use it.  My feeling is that to own a gun you must be willing to use it.  My fear is that I would.  So no gun.  But it is the appreciation of that knowledge that anchors me and lets me out of the whole argument.  Guns may not kill people, but people with guns do.  I am grateful I am not a bigot.  I like being a Jew.  I do not trust Putin. I know I am being watched. I treasure the right to vote and still get a frisson of joy when I do it. I do not miss having grandchildren (from my own kids).

As I really begin to appreciate these small things, other smaller ones follow.  I hate to go to movies.  Very simple.  I do not like to go. And I get so many arguments (not offers) and find myself using hackneyed phrases like “it’s not my cup of tea” – and this works because everyone knows what a cup of tea is.    I have no desire to own property. I have by and large always been a cliff dweller (as my mother would say) and I like apartment living. It’s not for everyone, but it is for me.  And all this appreciation is not always positive.  I realize that I was a very terrible mother – something two other adults know too.  And in the fullness of knowing comes the reality there is nothing I can do to go back and do better. Even though I know better.  But I do know it and I can say it and I know why it is true.  I don’t want to have a dog.  I do like the way many dogs look, but they are not an animal that lures me. For some this is character flaw – but it’s just what I know.As I know I like red meat. And these shocks of wisdom – as I personally depreciate and time becomes more scarce also allow me to let stuff go.  Like movie theaters, mortgages and dusting.  They allow me to read India (my preferred subject matter), mystery novels, genetics, Jewish history, and anything else whose title sounds alluring.   Because I appreciate that time does flow like a river and we all sink at some point as we float.

Is there a message in all this – kinda.  If you can feel the shocks of appreciation, wait for even more. You will get them and for the fortunate ones who do, they will lighten it up as you drift – the buoyancy will astonish you as it does me and you may even appreciate that our demographic may be the last who can do this and probably because there is no app for it.

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Number Two With A Bullet January 10, 2011

Posted by voolavex in common sense, despicable, illegal, peasants, Politics & Religion, Scalia, Social Issues.
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Twelve years ago my husband was pistol whipped where he worked.  The assailant hit him several time on the left side of his head leaving him with a closed head trauma, permanent disability, severe headaches and laundry lists of ongoing side effects that have gotten worse instead of better.   For many years we thought this injury was caused by a closed  fist until an eyewitness mentioned it had been a gun butt that was used.  The men were armed.  That is the full disclosure part.

When the framers wrote our constitution the second amendment was logical to me.  A war had just been fought, trespass and killings still were a part of the landscape of 1776.  Added to that many Americans shot for food.  Disallowing guns to me seemed like a bad idea.  I often think today we confuse the framers with the store front fortune tellers who can see all and tell all for a price.  The men who wrote the constitution were not seers.  They did not appear to have divine vision neither did they claim to have insider future info that guided them.  I think they wrote a damn fine outline for a new and revolutionary country.  An untried experiment. Until the American and French revolted royalty pretty much called the shots and it was an iffy business.  In France (pre-1789), the birth of prince and then a princess was called the “choix du roi”.   First you have an heir and then you marry off your daughter to another crown prince and gain more of everything.  Marie Antoinette was an arch duchess of Austria.   So one of the jobs of the framers was to abolish this entitlement of one ruling class and make everyone equal (sort of).  What I’m not sure of is how long they expected this country to last or grow.   Certain inalienable rights  however were declared and bearing arms was one of them.  You did not have to be a soldier of the king to strike fear into people who threatened your sovereignty.

Sadly the folks who like to shoot guns and desire to own and wear them are not always the good  citizens.   The bad guys too are equally entitled to have them. The 2nd amendment said nothing about shooting nor did it specify under what circumstances the arms could be used.   Talk about your open to interpretation clause. The framers simply (I think) did not want Mr. John Q. American to be invaded by gun-toting foreigners who were going to steal their land and freedom. And I agree.

I am confused today about guns and gun laws and killers (well – not the killers).  I do not own a gun for one reason only.  I fear I would use it and I do not want that responsibility.  Like the bell, once the bullet leaves the chamber it has its own path and once it’s on it, people can get hurt or killed.  Like yesterday.  So while I respect the second amendment for its desire to protect Americans from all enemies, foreign and domestic – I am not sure enough people really understand and truly respect the amendment and how profound it is.  We live in confusing times.  And as an aside – I think it is time for SCOTUS member Scalia to have at least the Minnesota Multiphasic

Free Verse Doggerel to the GOP September 28, 2009

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Donkey
Burro
Ass
What the heck
 
We don’t have Rush
And we don’t have Beck
We never had Cheney
And we didn’t like Bush
 
Take ’em all to a cliff
And then holler
Push
 
They hate Obama
They loathe Al Gore
They’re mad hell
And what’s more
 
They’d rather see you sick
or worse,
while they tighten
the drawstrings
on their purse
 
Carry their guns
Spread some lies
While we keep
winning the Nobel Prize.
 
Angry, nasty, always railin’
I think they caught something
from Sarah Palin.